35 weeks today. I am filled with such thankfulness that we have made it this far and are starting to anticipate meeting our little babe.
Last week we had the most encouraging appointment so far. A couple of the issues they are monitoring showed some signs of improvement. At previous appointments, the fluid on the brain was on the high side, but is now in a (high) normal range. His kidneys are still enlarged, but are moderate not severe. Thank You, Lord!!
They are still concerned about other major issues, but at this point much we will wait until birth to find out what we are facing. Because of his position (he's breech) the ultrasound tech was having a difficult time getting clear shots. She was trying to show us more of his cleft issue, but it's hard to see in the ultrasound. I'm praying that we have a perfectly healthy baby who happens to have a cleft lip/palate. Or even more, praying that he could be healed completely. Want to see his little picture?
Our sweet baby. He is so loved!
We left the doctor's office and I felt something that I haven't felt for most of this pregnancy...excited. Could we possibly get to bring him home? I think the good news stirred something inside that made me realize how desperate I am for his little life. How much I want to hold him and experience life with him. The excitement didn't last long before it turned into fear. Grin. Isn't that how it goes? I don't know if you are like me, but sometimes even in getting good news I can be so skeptical that I struggle to appreciate the moment.
The last week has been filled with a lot of up and downs as we anticipate delivery and all that it will hold. There are many concerns and fears, but the Lord has been so good to give such peace. And you know what? I KNOW that peace is from the Lord. In going through this process I am learning that the Lord will give us the strength we need when we need it. And I know that He will be faithful to do that in the days to come. I have no idea what the Lord holds for our little baby, but I know that for today I get to hold him as close to me as physically possible. And what a blessing that is.
I have been reminded of the suffering and heartache of so many the past few days. I pray that in the midst of this tender season our hearts may be filled with the greatest gift of all... the peace of knowing Christ. Friends, I don't know what I would do without the hope of Christ. Having a relationship with Jesus doesn't mean that life will be easy or absent of pain. But as I think all He has done for me in my life, I can honestly say...He is everything.
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